not depression

Not quite the same thing, but I was tapering off medication about 13 years ago and it's highly addictive, so I had to do it slowly. Well, I started losing sleep and that losing sleep became quite significant. I had severe insomnia. When I told my doctor, he gave me some exercises and asked me what I was thinking about at night. I said, nothing. I just couldn't get to sleep. So he sent me to a sleep specialist and the sleep specialist said they thought I was manic and that I had a goiter (I thought he was delusional) and I knew I wasn't and didn't, but was sent to a psychiatrist and I told him I know I'm not manic or bipolar and he acknowledged the same thing within the first five minutes. Turns out, the insomnia was a side-effect of tapering off the meds and I had even asked my general doctor about that and he said he hadn't heard anything about it. I changed doctors within six months of that BS and found someone who knew all about the meds . Sometimes we need to re-evaluate who we're seeing if all they want to do is medicate us without looking at the realities and actually listening. Now I live in the US, I know that changing doctors can be a more expensive exercise. I used to live in a more 'reasonably priced' healthcare market. But on the same token, sometimes we can be experiencing a period of depression that is pocketed with normality enough to make us feel like we're not in a state of depression.

Hello there I just wanted to say keep your head up. That might not sound like good solid advice but I have learned to do so these past years and grew so much stronger thank God. I have only been diagnosed with epilepsy since last August, but had my fist seizure 2 years ago so remained undiagnosed until then. I was sent to the mental ward twice and accumulated a record while being diagnosed Bi-polar, even lost my son during what was possibly the hardest time in my life. I knew something was wrong it was very painful for me to go through, I would seize and be trapped in my mind trying to tell myself to stop and thought I was insane at points even though I knew my body, would only pull to one side and sometimes would even urinate and vomit. I was even physically harmed in the presences of Doctors, would seize in hospitals for nurses to stand me to my feet, shine a flashlight across my eyes and seize again, then they would stand me back up and ask me "stop doing that." My seizures progressed from 1 every 4 months to 10-12 day day, they mis read some test but FINALLY found the mass on my temporal right gurus sending me to a Neurologist. I think there is still much unknown about Epilepsy. The brain is very complex. I constantly wrote down my symptoms and would try to get the Doctors to read them but they literally would briefly look at my list then leave look at my chart, come back and tell me they thought my symptoms were stress induced. Dare I say "seizure" they would say I wasn't having any, I was having anxiety. I fought for a year like this, went to many different Doctors, and 5 different Hospitals. With my list my self (no equipment, degree, of test mis-read or otherwise which they did do a year before previously and compared to the new results later) a month before my diagnosis I Googled my symptoms myself and exclaimed aloud "Oh my God! I think I have Epilepsy!" Maybe I should be a Doctor. Don't give up, Doctors make plenty of mistakes. We are all human. God bless you. Jesus Christ is the only one who has gotten me through any of this, and knew I was sane the entire time ;)