my health

Yesterday I had my first seizure while driving to work. I've had grand mal epilepsy since I was in sixth grade, I'm 27 now. Over time I've had ten seizures atleast. This medical condition is the only thing I hate about my life and something I can't get rid of. I've excepted this but each time I have a f**king seizure I hate my life. I hate that I put loved ones through the same concern and frustration. I've always been on meds. I've learned my causes very from lack of sleep, stress and anxiety, anger, depression, but yesterday I was fine. I understand the body knows more than the mind thinks it does. But damnit I hate living like this. I hate putting all my loved family and friends through this. I except this condition Gods given me but still continue to have a severely difficult time copping. Oh a short fyi. I hit a snow bank and a sidewalk that stopped my car yesterday. No one was around or hurt. No cars damaged. Broke my glasses and locked my self outside of my car while walking around my car not fully contious but I had my phone and was able to figure out how to call my mother. Now I am a little afraid to drive again. This time my epilepsy's taking a little of my freedom and I dont know how to cope exactly.