Life is hard with seizures

I just need a place to vent...

Some days it is hard to keep going. My seizures were under control for six years, almost seven. I went back to school in my thirties and I just graduated with a teaching degree. I am supposed to start teaching in the fall. My lifelong dream is finally supposed to happen. 

Except in April, I had a breakthrough tonic-clonic seizure. An I have been having simple partial seizures ever since. I am exhausted. I am emotionally drained because my seizures are emotional. I sit at home all day everyday now because I have several of these a day. I have no friends anymore because I dont leave the house. I am driving my family crazy, or at least I feel like I am, because it is all I talk about. I can't take my four year old son places to enjoy his summer so he is angry and bored. Some days I can't even get up off the couch.

I am in and out of hospitals again and the debt is once again piling up. I have no job, no income. How can I work if I can't even go a day without seizing? How can I stand in front of a classroom of students and teach if I can't keep it together for one day...

Thank you for reading my complaints.