Just need to share my tiny woes

Hi Guys and Gals, I know I don't have many problems compared to others and you fellows in the US have a worst time of it, but am unusually feeling naughtily distressed and sorry for myself having just had a nightmare.had to go to the dreaded Govts assessment and it was extremely stressful and worrying preparing for it and then getting a taxi and hoping I would conk out in it. I didn't but the noise and feeling very shaky from the taxi drive helped I suppose for me to cutting long story short, have cluster seizures and collapse-absence only where I am aware. Paramedics called then I recover,etc.etc. and only 5mins later than apt (although I was confused about this at the time) and they refused to see me, saying either I'll have to come again or might get a home visit.I mean what more do they want-blood? I get the feeling this is a money making venture as it is run by private company which obviously charge to Govt. They just couldn't get it that it would cause me more stress and worry. I feel really knocked back and can't go home until I've calmed down because of the worry of self=harm due to frustration. What all this is telling me is that I need something positive and drastic to organise;maybe like when I still went travelling despite M.E. (fatigue syndrome) years ago. But still trying to sort my father's affairs out. I was his carer and I reckon this epilepsy (re former brain injury) sparked of because of the loss and in effect loss of my job and role and also being deskilled and worn out. I feel there is something I would define as a post-caring syndrome. PCS that's what's happened to a friend as well. You keep going and then when you lose the loved one you conk out. Sorry but this is helping-just the frustration. Okay I'll shut up. Take all of you-this is a great site and keeps me going.