I need help right here in Raleigh NC

I need everyones help.

What I went through and  two children started on June 2014.   A policeman and my spouse managed to break the law in getting me locked down for being crazy etc. .

The cops came to my home, and took me away. to a psychiatric lock down holding area.  I just had to leave, and I didn't know why.  I tried to tell the officer that I needed to take my seizure medications but I this was denied.

  Later that night in lock down I found to be around guards.  I was given a room with an old mattress.  Urine on the floor and under the mattress I found out that morning.  The chair and small table I used as my resting area for three nights.  Some time that night after me being very angry I finally got the correct medication. Time stopped and I vanished.

Saturday morning I was allowed to come out of the small dirty room. I could sit in  a small room with men sitting on chairs and some on the floor. Few feet away another very small room. Two children 11 and 14 yrs old.  Being a pediatric RN I asked, for some reason if they were taking any medication. The 11yr old whispered yes.  Whispering together he said he didn't get his.  When I asked him what it was he whispered his medication.  Corey had epilepsy.  As we talked we all became friends.   I did address my concerns to the RN which got me no where.  Later I saw him sitting on the floor in his plain dirty room. He was on a mat, and tryng to eat  his small cold lunch. Your food in a box and a spoon given  I asked the RN why he was on the floor, and I was told he could have a seizure. I was told that's why he was given the room with the large window so every person around could walk by and see him on the floor.. Oh my anger and fustration went high, but I tried  not  to show it as  I didn't know where I would go next.  I wanted to stay with the kids. The MDs were behind glass windows looking out on everyone.  

Three days went by. What we were given and what these kids saw will be with them for life. They didn't come in with psychiatrict problems, but they certainly will have them now. We prayed, and they talked about how god will be with them where ever they go.  I had god right next to me those 19 days of _____. We talked a lot together during my lock down. I couldn't have made it with him.

Monday came, and we were all hand and ankle cuffed away. All children and adults who can walk are cuffed.  State Law.  Adults and children all looked at me as I had  just  been arrested. 

I  then was taken to a another psych unit. Three days later I had a very  long partial complex seizure for me.  The RNs came and documented my several minutes of my unusal activity. Then stated no seizure seen in their notes.  Two psych MDs agreed.  I had to get very angry and finally they called my neurologist the next day.   Stress, lack of sleep, a red light flashing in your eyes every 15minutes through out the nights,  and poor diet did me in.  19days later.  I'm still having trouble, and my neurologist will be working with me. 

I'm also mandated to see a psychiatrist now for drug addiction and suicidal tendencies. Oh I was given a guardian as I needed help in our divorse case. To expensive to fight.  I have epilepsy and can't function a lone.

Four months out I just found out I'm delusional, suicidal and I have a narcisstic personality.    I have shown my anger and fustration  and this certainly has not helped me. 

The mandated psychiatrist  also found out I had epilepsy surgery for partial/partial complex seizures. I had been doing quite well until an illegal lock down occured. He feels this all comes from missing a piece of my brain.  Just found out the inhouse psychiatrist had  been talking to my spouse the whole time..  The psychiatrist even refused me in picking up my medication at the pharmacist.  

 Epilepsy Month is in November, and I want to speak up and out for all of us.  So much ignorance and stupidity, still exists here in NC.  

I need every ones help.  

Bonnie