what to do?

Hi, I am very new on here. Bear with me if my post may be too long but I am really confused. Recently, I have been diagnosed with Social and Panic attacks. The doctor and therapist strongly believe that my anixety is the source to it. I don't deny it because it seems when being around that situation it stems up far stronger. Because I have been told, I notice it more and harder to control. Fine, I can accept that. What scares me and I've repeatedly told them that I believe I have seizures in my hands and arms. Literally, my hands and arm get out of control or I lose control....furthermore, I am conscious but fight within myself trying to hold back the sudden seizures in arms and hand...If I can't then the full affect appears. The only way I can explain is on how it comes... The anixety starts forming: uncontrol sweat, especially standing up mingling with people, dizziness, sometimes tension headaches, foggy head, hands and feet feel like jelly....This is hard to describe..I don't know what pins and needles feel like but all I can say is that I feel that they don't have weight....like you need something to lean on or grasp something heavy in order to feel that they aren't....While this whole time the anixety kicks in, i would start feeling the sensation that my legs will buckle and my hands and arms will spaz out uncontrollable...While this time, sudden movements such as, getting up...my legs will feel like they froze suddenly because i stop it or unconsciously stop it for the fear of i will have a seizure...i try harder when around in social gatherings....its rare i will have a full extent of my seizures actually happening...but that fear of off balance or sudden frozen movements scares the crap out of me....those times i have lost control...i've had the full effect of the seizure..usually, in private and occasion in public which i quickly dismiss as having a cramp in my leg.... description of my seizure...quickly and unexpectedly my right hand and arm will bend towards my chest and the same time my hands clench like a claw like...but if i try to fight it...i usually make a fist which enables my fisted hand to turn inwards....afterwards the left arm will do the same motion...like one way after the other...then my head will tip to the side and my left facia will cringe from mouth...like your giving a funny grin....sort of....while the seizure is taking its toll...i would experience a slurring of the voice...and kinda faze out..i'm still very conscious but like in a dreamlike motion...it last only a few seconds...depending on how long i want it to...and where its happening...i've had one or few attacks at home or place at work.......VERY RARE!...if so, i let the full affect in private...but those time in public...i literally have dropped things i was holding and immediately grab the left hand onto my arm or bend over my legs and crouch and bend my face or pretending i am having a cramp on my leg...oh while, i'm fighting myself not too look embarrassing or people think other then what i tell them...i'm sure some ppl have seen it to be very odd but i try to hide it very well.........or at least try.... because of those rare moments i am literally dying that it won't come out again...and show the full extent.....just the other day, i cut off part of the full seizure....thank god for the table in front of me...that sudden motor movement like taking a step without me caustiously doing so...i suddenly felt my hands and arms going in the affect on its on..but i grabbed onto the side of the table and clenched so had to have some control....which sort of distracted me to let the seizure go further then it did.......as quick as it started i quickly made it look like it was nothing....i guess i forced myself...thats where the tension headaches building up....my head is fighting whatever, inside that is trigger from going in that direction..............without feeling a full affect seizure, i will have that fear or sensation of having another...those rare days a full seizure comes...i rarely have another and feel refreshed........ just lately, those trigger signs have been so strong that i am literally drained from trying to stay focus or distract from the next attack...it seems more apparent during the same places........ppl....home and comfort zone and ppl.......rarely as strong as places where i need to be but my anixety and fear of having a seizure to the full affect in front of ppl is scaring the crap out of me..to the point, i don't want to go.........i speak in front of ppl alot and my whole life has been social atmosphere......but never has strong as it is now...... i don't know much about seizures.....i don't even know if my attacks are called seizures because i can control most of the time of letting it happen........but its abnormal.. does it sound like i may have epilepsy?....after reading many online articles...i don't believe i ever read someone can control or know an attack could happen....plus, doctor did the full blood work on my entire body........everything came back perfect.......i was even told, i'm very healthy...but be considered or looked into epilepsy...would blood work have to come back at least some sort of abnormal somewhere....... and if it is an anixety induced reaction........why is it if asked or even put in a situation just to see if the full affect of my ordeal before and after doesn't happen? the doctor has given me medication for my anixety..and assures it will work.......but i wonder if my seizure like feeling will still happen...let alone a seizure...today was my first day on the medication...i'm very curious if it is anixety related...i've been self examing far more closer when, where and how much am noticing....i don't know whats worse, the axixety of reving up to one or actually having one.... i'm scared...i'm praying that the medication will solve all the questions.......if not, I will demand the doctor to look into if it is this disorder... love to have feedback, please! VTEC