Marijuana or anxiety related epilepsy?

I have seen a Neuro and had an EEG done, it came back normal. no doctor atm due to insurance, so I am here. not epileptic i guess. I am 19 years, started smoking at 14. Very heavy daily from start to current. I have only had about 12 seizures, MOSTLY within the past 1.5 yrs, first seizure at 15 yrs old.. For one I have horrible anxiety, ad/d, stupid anger hourly basis I get in deep dark moods, insanely Insecure and isolated, I don't sleep, very depressed, I have feelings of PTSD that send me in near blackout rages if i can't get away from what is provoking me. I am suffering from all of this. Overall I need therapy!(lol), btw these symptons were before the marijuana usage, and are shared with my twin, my mom had us in therapy at age 10 because she thought our dad not being around affects us(passed when we were 2). I seem to have no emotion over the dad though, never knew him. I want to blame all of those symptons for the seizures, because of how crippling it is to me. I feel mentally ill. I am.. back to the point, the onset of almost every seizure was bad anxiety, which a couple of times, seemed to be due to getting 'too medicated'. I'll sit there for 10-15 minutes telling myself, "im not really epileptic, nothing to worry about" but really, I'm laying down, drinking water, closing my eyes, try laughing, all to relieve the anxiety in fear of a seizure. One seizure was for sure triggered from getting punched in the face. ALSO, As far as I know, the seizures are simple partial, lasting 10-45 seconds, most of them i were conscious enough to watch sit paralyzed, feeling a ghost is possessing me.. I get static, vivid like ear ringing and sweating. Immediantly before almost every seizure, I would randomly say "I'm going to sleep" and laid down to the seizure, feeling blessed to have an 'aura', just weird I am not intentionally laying down, nor am I trying to say "Im going to sleep, it slips outa nowhere" Am on Lamictal as of now, 2 months in, I can't consider myself 'seizure free' yet cause they were all 2 month seperated or so anyways, and I still get the anxiety feeling of a seizure sometimes. Also I am not in the best shape, I feel very weak, I feel faint every day, and have for 3 years. Vitamin D is all i lack as far as I know. ANY answers, or tips are GREATLY appreciated. Thank you so much for reading.