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Strong Enough

Thu, 11/17/2016 - 12:31
You think I’m broken because you’ve seen it. This girl may be hurt but she’s still chosen. She’s beaten down by seizures but she’ll be open. The one thing you don't understand is I can't stop it. You act like I do it on purpose for a show so you can watch it. I wake up from seizing and I feel sick. They don’t understand it’s not something I can pick. I don’t want to feel the pain. It’s something I just can’t contain. Yes I may worry, But no I’m not sorry. Some may call what I have a disability, But I call it a responsibility. I set high expectations for my health, So trust me when I say my biggest critic is myself. I know that’s probably not what you think, Because I hide it under a shell of security. I want to be strong enough, But first I have to release this anxiety. I was made for a purpose, So I won't let epilepsy determine my focus. You see me shaking on the ground and wonder what’s wrong. I’m carried out on a stretcher and people ask what’s going on? If others don’t know then what will they do, When I fall to the ground and start mumbling too. It’s a monster inside me that shows itself in the worst of ways, And on my darkest of days. This thing I deal with is another piece of me. It’s not something I want, But is something I can’t change. If you had this too, Then what would you do? I don’t want to worry about fighting this on my own. When I need to find strength I can turn to friends alone. They love me without ceasing, Even when they’ve seen me while I’m seizing. I try so hard to hide it, But they help me see that it’s okay to be different. They tell me to embrace my personality, And turn to face my reality. He gave me this so I could show them that they’re wrong; No matter what I go through I will stand strong. I’ll show others that if I can make it anyone can. When I get looked at like I’m different, I’ll start to talk about my seizures; They’ll know it’s not something I’ve picked, But I’m still strong enough to live with it.

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Excellent thank you

Submitted by Roald on Wed, 2017-04-19 - 23:08
Excellent thank you

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