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The confuzzled girl. @:(.......
Tue, 09/30/2008 - 15:43Is it me or am i going mad?
Is it me or am i going crazy?
Is it me that made myself like this?
i'm Sophia and i'm 18. I'm not faking who i am or kidding the kidder, i'm just me but i don't know who me is anymore!! I am confuzzled by the world and maybe the world is confuzzled by me. It is slowly spinning around but it feels its going too fast!!! Blasted through time and space that brings me to this prestent day and i have to find my own way through life.
At last someone has told me, that i have epilepsy!!! The day i found out i felt a knife go straight into my body and now its stuck there forever. Those voices that torture and hate me and the things i hear and the things i see that isn't seen by anyone else but just me, is this the epilepsy or i am slowly loosing my sanaty and the will to live?
I maybe mad and crazy when i say this but i rather have seizures everyday or two, then have seizure free days or weeks beacuse seizures are like fleas they are dorment for a while and then a trigger sets them off, then they all come at once and bite you in the fucking ass and it becomes too hot to handle!!
When this happens it nearly kills me physically and mentally!!!
Thoses days/weeks that i was on a high would and always plumet to more than a low.
I mean what goes up must always come down right?
This is Sophia Hill and i'm the confuzzled girl !!!!!