kepra

gratefulmouse---in my life i had major derpession and anxiety disorder.....I went through it 3 times and my last time was on an antidperessant...I had nver taken an antidepressant until I had a hysterectomy and the idiot drs at the time..back in 1988---I was put on PREMARIN...an estrogen drug touted to be the most natural...yea right...NATURAL TO HORSES..AS THAT IS WHAT IT WAS MADE FROM.... the drs said I was depressed and t hat is why I was having horrible symptoms after my hysterectomy....but that was not the case...I went to a shrink who said ok if they think your depressed maybe I have something to help you sleep and eat..I wasnt doing either..so she gave me  some desipramine..  its an antidpressant .tricyclic....it did help the sleep and eat probem...but not the hotflashes and depression that I did have but not the same as my major depression...well, I got upset with all that and went to a female specialist..she ran a blood test and the rest is history ....she said i was allergic to PREMARIN THE HORSE ESTROGEN... and to get off it was causing my body to reject my own estrogen...so..I did and felt a lot better and she put me on another estrogen which really fixed me up..  so if my idiot drs had just noticed that something was wrong with premarin and just tried me on a different estrogen I would have been ok....well, after 10 yrs of taking desipramine the antidepressant..I decided to get off ..so I told my dr and i did it very slowly....well,  half way off bang..I had my first seizure...I was 47 when that happened...I therefore consider myself blessed because Id didnt have it as a child..  I was rushed to emergency becuz no one knew what had happened to me I was at work and dilantin was pushed through my body and within 7 days I broke out in a rash...then neurontin was tried and my stomach was goign round adn round....they had taken me off desipramine the last 100...I was on 200 total and I got myself down to the 100...well, they diidnt taper me of they just jerked me off ...which is not suppose to happen and that threw my stomach and guts into such a turmoil....  i thought it was the nuerontin and got off it and got back on the antidepressant...I took it another 10 yrs never having another seizure....and then I said ...i want to do a body cleanse so I started off again with a drs help...and bang...half way off another seizure my second...I was put on keppra then....I was half way off the antidepresant and stayed there that time....and when i got on the keppra I had no mood problems at all... well, while oin the keppra I decided to just get off teh desipramine as it has many side affects...so i did and felt ok actually.....I was also on the estrogen and decided to get off it as everyone was yelling about taking it...I did that and then I said ok now I will get off keppra...i did that and it was at that time I noticed the awful mood swings that it brings with it...it exaserbated my anxiety disorder....and my depression.....but once I was off it...it clears up..however, I had more energy while on keppra....  well, 4-6 wks later bang...another seizure....my third..I was 56 yrs old....at home alone..scaredme but i have to say..without taking anything else for 4 days I didnt have another at all...I felt ok...I was scared abit to be alone...then i went to an awful dr in houston...he started me back on the keppra ...andthen I noticed the nightmare of mood swings on that ...but once you get to where you are suppose to be ..it stops..  so when getting on keppra as you change amounts that you take ..it causes about 2 to 3 days of mood swings...then it slowly stops and you are normal...after awhile your body adjusts to it and no more mood things at all....well, my dr said not good enough I had to go up to 2000  a day...I had only taken 1000 a day  500 in the morning and 500 at night....before...anyway he said 2000 a day was theraputic... so I did that and was so sick I began wasting away...I lost tons of weight...25 lobs in three weeks..and had bone wasting and muscle wasting and other side affects..i called the dr over and over and h e began to not pay attention to me...so i had my husband carry my body into his office and he realized at that point he put me of fto long.. I was put on lamictal and taken off keppra ..while going on one I had to suffer the side affects of it and the side affects of getting off keppra....man what a nightmare...the lamictal caused my brain not to go into sleep..it would j ump as i lay there...I was depressed as crazy and no sleep which wore me the already wasted woman to almost nothing...i began to stay in bed and was in bed wasting away for 5 months..the next drug  was trileptal....it wore off in 6 hrs and I began to cramp and intead of taking it twice a day I began taking it 4 times a day.....and it nearly destroyed my kidneys....because when i got ahold of emergency one night just to ask them what to do ..they said contact my dr I told them I tried but he wont answer my calls and they said to change drs and told me what they could.. i went in agin to the dr and he put me on xanax in the between time while taking trileptal....paaaaleeeassseee to go from bad to worse...i got off trileptal and told that dr...no way...that he would do what I wanted from now on and that would be to put me back on keppra but at a lower dose...i knew I was suppose to be on keppra because even though I did get some awful depression and anxeity ...it wasnt bad when it wore off...so he did what i asked and I got back on my antidepressant... I had ideas to get on the keppra and then get on the antidepressant and then get off keppra and just stay on the antidepressant even though i didnt need it for depression but because it helped me not to have siezure as it was the reason I had seizures...getting off desipramine caused me to have one seizure when I did that.. no one bothered to look into the matter...I also found out that the last seizure i hd as a result of getting off desipramine teh antidepressant even though I hd been off for sometime...as...I took it when I was taking keppra...I took them together....I found out from the pharmacist that if you take keppra with certain other drugs..that keppra binds to that drug....so when I was getting off keppra in the end I was really getting off of my antidepressant....again...so that is why the seizure... my new nuerologist said that she wouldnt treat me if i decided to get off keppra and stay on the antidepressant..well, I knew that I should be taking the keppra ...so I decided once again to get off the antidepressant and stay on the keppra...well, I had just gotten up to 200 on the antidepressant and was feeling awful...what a nightmare it was..as I went onto the antidepressant..I felt so awful i cant describe teh feeling...like dying actually...i was moving at the time ...from houston to san angelo tx... I fell in the move and broke 3 ribs and then a door fell on my head....nearly killing me..then my husband decides he is having a heart attack ...I take his blood pressure and its normal..but he insists on going in and I tell him he must be just axious beause I told him to quit his job that was killing hm ..having to drive over an hour to get to work and the same coming home....and knowing I was at home bedridden and alone trying seizzure drugs... so he quit and we checked out san angelo where his mom was and she was wasting away but she is 80 yrs old....from her coumadin....well, he spent 6  days in the hospital...I had to pack everything in our apt and also get trucks and people to help us pack up the trucks....and get my son in college along with his things...while the old husband was in the hspital..come to find out I was right...he wasnt having a heart attack..he has slick arteries..and ..his heart was fine....I on the other hand ..had had a heart check adn one of my valves is thick and empacted and the other part of the heart was lazy from not having much blood coming in to make the heart move like it should..I was told to see a  heart dr but put it off because of the move and at the same time having broken ribs and banged up  head but still had to pack and get trucks and people and get my son into college...I guess his so calle dheart attack came at the right time... I am amazed at how things work out...me old seizure brain ...having to take care of all those things while a healthy man except for his diabetes ...gets a break like that....well,, i guess you can tell my anger is still there..I have forgiven him but still feel put upon beause it wasnt appreciated at all..  anyway..my  husband got a job there in san angelo before we even moved there..we were blessed and in that I find joy...we found an apt right away...i guess the Lord saw my predicament and said enough is enough .....soemthing has got to go right... anyway..Im still going off the desipramine...half way off and will go down another 25mgs when i get a thing that has happened to me now...i went to help out my kids..to babysit while a son who came back from afghansitan goes on a cruise with his wife...I babysat 4 kids ...the first night I didnt sleep as I got some weird thing like a hot poker going through my back ...then when I sat up it was going t hrough my left front under my ribs...io coudlnt bend over...so I went to emergency...they took a simple xray and said I was impacted...so gave me a laxative and it only aggravated the situation.....i went back in and they gave me pain killer... I took it but the hosp where i was...didnt want to care for me cuz i wasnt from there...dont blame them...so i went through it for 2 wks hoping to get home and get it taken care of ..over time it got smaller...well, I had to fly back and that is when it got more inflamed ...when i got home I was miserable..but then it started to calm down....it felt like a huge thing under my rib on the left side..it could be my pancreas which is on the left side and then...or my gut ..or stomach..no one knew..i saw my dr the next day as I had an apt. he took another xray and saw an impaction..I had no problems with that but he said take mineral oil and reglan...a bowel mover and reflux acid reducer...i dotn like taking acid reducers because when getting off teh acid comes back in with a vengence...well, I took his stuff and it clogged me up for 3 days ...i went the entire week feeling worse..I ask why doesnt someone at least ..do a ultrasound..how hard can that be.. or do an mri so we can tell what this huge thing is on teh upper right side...what cavity its in...so help me if I find out its something that should have been treated and not ignored ..look out...that is why law suits abound...so...so I see the dr again this next friday...Im suppose to see a gastro dr and a skin dr ....man ...I never had this problem at a hosp I use to go to in houston...they took care of things pronto.. they dont realize that goiong to see a dr a  hundred times for the same thing costs more money then doing one simpple mri and bang you know what it is.... well, i will let you guys know how the keppra works when Im off the desipramine....when a person takes it for a long time ..the symptoms go away....i get energy from it...when i first ever took it ..it did make me drowsy ..in the morning and in the evening but in the middle of the day...I was energeitic...it was fine...once the mood things wore off....and then after all that you arent drowsy any more...you feel fine....and more normal than any other drug....