some advantages of epilepsy

Hi Kristyn, you're absolutely right, I'm on your line too - can be so creative that I get scared sometimes! I've got TLE and, was only diagnosed just 3 - 4 yrs ago, several tests concluded my brian haemohrage as probably since childhood. Although, I only began experiencing complex partial seizures around 4 - 5 yrs ago, which later developed/deteriorated to include grandmal fits. I can agree with the doctors, as my parents confirmed the likelihood cause of heamohrage, that as a child I often banged my head against walls whenever I cried and, loved crying. You can imagine what I deliberately did to myself unknowingly, massive damage probably. (i) Well amongst my siblings, they reckon that I'm perhaps the most creative, though previously troublesome and very hard to manage! I've also recently discovered the possibility of connection between early brain damage - later developments of creativity. I wonder if you're aware of the belief that St. Paul, prophet Mohammed, and many other renowned personalities had this disease, that epilepsy was known in the past as the sacred disease? (ii) For me, the problems I had growing-up, was I hardly took instructions nor was I able to learn at colleges, actually I dreaded going to school! So I won't say that I had any formal education, but later when I'd dropped out, then I got inspirations and developed the technique of self-teaching. From nothing/scratch, couldn't read nor write properly, with just GOD/JAH-CHRIST inspiration now to a Mr. almost know it all. Music - performing artist, song writings, poetry, multi instrumentalist, visual artist, IT specialist and every household job, building and decorations; horti-culturalist, - waoh what a hell - and oh, almost forgot, I used to be a womaniser before I got married and, divorced but, don't fancy going back to womanising. (iii) What I have discovered in my few yrs of epileptic life experience, is if you continue to follow the meds like a sheep, they may one day lead you stright to the slaughter house! "I think we should up your dosage", that's exactly what they did to me, following them as a sheep until I fell almost flat-dead! A scene which some neighbours had to assist before taken to the hospital, and several tests plus a review of my medications indicated over - over dose. A professor neurologist, who is also an expert in diseases of the brian had discribed that dosage as equal to someone taking a whole bottle of whisky at a go!!! What? Even that info itself was a knock-out blow to me, knowing that I was on such ridiculous dasage for over 3-months! When it eventually knocked me out, waoh, that hell of experience, you can't get any worst than that and, it's hard to describe accurately. It's similar to the agony of having been held down deep under water, when you're desperately struggling for precious air without success and, so unbearable that the only thing you then wish for is death! But death was nowhere to be found in that never ending hell of experience. Since then I gave up on all medications, better die by epilepsy/fits than by the medicines to control it - and now I feel so good by myself, utilising the same creativity here! So Kristyn, I will hang-up for now, though others who have no epilepsy can sometimes try to make you feel meserable, I'm now buiding up a tough resistance to that. When you're not wrong, everything is alright!

Hi Kristyn, just found this site last night and have read many life stories. Nice to know that I'm not the only one. Have had seizures for 20 years and I like your #1. I have used that a few times when I had no other rational. I'll think a bit, I may beable to add to your list. Thanks