I've just been diagnosed with absence seizures at age 28. I've been struggling with the diagnosis. To begin with I thought, hay it's just a name and it will get better with meds so it's a positive thing, but now for some reason I can't accept this.
My meds don't seem to be working so far and all I keep thinking is why me, why do I have to have this, I don't want it. I find myself crying and depressed at the idea of having to take medication for the rest of my life and the fear of having seizures in front of people. My husband is very supportive but my family don't seem to understand it and I feel very alone at the moment. I just can't accept that I have this. It's also crossed my mind that if it had been spotted before then maybe it wouldn't have been so bad and easier controlled although I know this isn't the best thing to do.
I'm sorry for sounding like I'm just moaning but just needed to vent. Just don't see a way of being able to accept this at the moment.
I'm keeping a daily diary on here plus down on paper but my memory is rubbish and often forget if I have had a seizure or not plus half the time I don't even know if I'd had one at all.
I am very grateful for this website though and am finding that gaining information is helping.
If anyone can relate to what I'm going through then I would really appreciate some tips on how to accept it and how to learn to live with it as I know that's what I have to do.