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Depression, Sleep and Epilepsy - To Drown The Monstrous I

Mon, 12/19/2011 - 09:45
Topic: Creative Corner
A poem which attempts to describe the depression that so often goes hand in hand with epilepsy. To Drown The Monstrous I Free, but rarely registering, The land, the sky the sea, My world’s within; a maelstrom of misery. Replicated deep within each cell Redundant thought, contemplative hell I strive to die, I strive to weep To drown the monstrous I, in sleep. Within my selfish severed head, All friends are absent, and lovers dead. I’m lost to touch, my senses shed My mind consumed, by parasitic dread, I strive to die, I strive to weep To drown the monstrous I, in sleep.

Comments

Re: Depression, Sleep and Epilepsy - To Drown The Monstrous I

Submitted by teachergreen on Mon, 2011-12-19 - 16:14

you write beautifully. the glass is half full my husband says and i take this to mean more for hime than me. the epilepsy is harder for my family than me. I forget the simple things, mostly everything but I take life one day at a time. Just happy if I don't hurt myself.

So the house isn't spotless, decorated to impressed. I don't know what I want in that area anyway. yes i don't have close friends, raising two sons to be independent hasn't happened. Relatives aren't the people I thought they'd be. There's more to life.

I'm playing my guitar, singing at retirement homes and feeling a sense of purpose. Tell yourself there has to be a way. If you're  able what about reading to

disabled, retired people who are longing for the attention.

Writing in my journal I know helps me deal w life and gives support. 

Keep writing and sharing. I'm sure more than me are impressed.

you write beautifully. the glass is half full my husband says and i take this to mean more for hime than me. the epilepsy is harder for my family than me. I forget the simple things, mostly everything but I take life one day at a time. Just happy if I don't hurt myself.

So the house isn't spotless, decorated to impressed. I don't know what I want in that area anyway. yes i don't have close friends, raising two sons to be independent hasn't happened. Relatives aren't the people I thought they'd be. There's more to life.

I'm playing my guitar, singing at retirement homes and feeling a sense of purpose. Tell yourself there has to be a way. If you're  able what about reading to

disabled, retired people who are longing for the attention.

Writing in my journal I know helps me deal w life and gives support. 

Keep writing and sharing. I'm sure more than me are impressed.

Re: Depression, Sleep and Epilepsy - To Drown The Monstrous I

Submitted by victoria.w on Mon, 2011-12-19 - 19:03
Teachergreen Thank you so much for your lovely comments & kind thoughts. I wrote the poem a while ago: my current source of frustration is I can no longer express myself. Anti-convulsants, anti-depressants and anti-anxiety meds leave me lethargic. I thought perhaps posting a few old poems and getting feedback might spur me on, so thank you. I would love to do volunteer work again but am too exhausted: I work full-time in a demanding job and no longer have the energy to do both. Playing the guitar for people less fortunate sounds really rewarding. A journal...too much self-loathing at the moment...horrible mood swings...I like to beat myself up. Not a good character trait I know. But it will pass...it always does. Best wishes, Victoria

Re: Depression, Sleep and Epilepsy - To Drown The Monstrous I

Submitted by mounen on Thu, 2012-10-25 - 18:03

have you tried Cognitive Behavioural Therapy? I discovered the idea of self compassion while attending sessions over the last 2 years, along with a lot of other useful strategies for dealing with depression and anxiety.

 It's really lifted the heavy weight I was feeling. I'm actually starting to leave the house again, and I no longer sit crying for hours or wake in the night with crippling anxiety.

I think its really brave of you to put a poem on the web. I just joined this site and am just finding my way round, but I'm loving the idea of a creative forum for people to express themselves and their feelings. Just what we all need I think  :)

have you tried Cognitive Behavioural Therapy? I discovered the idea of self compassion while attending sessions over the last 2 years, along with a lot of other useful strategies for dealing with depression and anxiety.

 It's really lifted the heavy weight I was feeling. I'm actually starting to leave the house again, and I no longer sit crying for hours or wake in the night with crippling anxiety.

I think its really brave of you to put a poem on the web. I just joined this site and am just finding my way round, but I'm loving the idea of a creative forum for people to express themselves and their feelings. Just what we all need I think  :)

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