Short-term memory loss post- seizure

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Submitted by scruffy6666 on Tue, 2010-06-22 - 11:43

A ski accident left me with seizures and memory loss. I am 49 physically, mentally I am still 28. Memory loss is a tough thing to go through alone, which most of us do. No one can be expected to understand what it is like when our own doctors don't know how the brain works, and we aren't handed a guide book that explains what we will or won't remember. I have over time realized that the memories i seem to retain are dramatic, traumatic, emotional, or basically anything I would think, talk, or write about over and over. When you are able to remember something when speaking to someone, they begin to question whether your memory loss is real or are you making it up for attention. My own family still doesn't understand or believe entirely and they've known me 20 years. I have not matured mentally since the accident since maturity comes with experience, experiences we remember and learn from. You don't remember, so how do you learn and mature? Men my age feel like grandfathers. I am seen as strange, something no one can figure out. I go to rock concerts, play pool with a group of 27 yr old guys. I go out alone. I have nothing in common with people my age. Since this is a never ending process, the longer we live, the worse it gets. The body ages, the mind does not. I have noticed a pattern over the years as I've lost friends. Neighbors matured, I didn't. We had nothing in common anymore. Friends get tired of the same stories, the few you do remember. They don't like having a friend they can't reminisce with about the time...... They try to make sense of you, why you dress & act young, and the rumors start. Insecurity takes over when you realize that these people now know more about you than you do yourself. You're uncomfortable wondering what they know that you can't remember. Everyone assumes you remember and are baffled by the blank stare you give when you don't know what they are talking about. They think you're on drugs, anything to explain your odd behavior. After three years, my time is up with them, and I move on to the next chapter.