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Can you pull yourself out of an aura when you feel it coming?

Mon, 02/15/2010 - 19:48

Hi everyone. I've been asking a few questions since I'm new to this site. I've had 3 seizures so far, my first one being 3 months. So far my MRI and EEG were normal, then I did a full telemetric study, I find out those results in 2 days when I see my neuro again. After my third seizure he put me on Epilim 800mg without actually properly diagnosing me with epilepsy.

I'm very curious as to whether it's possible that my seizures are psychogenic? I have been under a lot of stress/anxiety/depression for quite a long time, plus a "traumatic" childhood as they would call it. I actually had a few anxiety attacks lately. I have had 2-3 episodes which you might call auras, however something tells me they may also be episodes of depersonalisation. My reasons being...once I learned that these might be epileptic auras, they scared the CRAP out of me and so whenever I felt them coming, I actually diverted my attention away from it...to make it stop. And I succeeded. I'm not sure if that's possible with real epileptic auras so I'm asking you guys. Also it's always the SAME feeling....a feeling of strangeness. The best way I can describe it is:

They always happen when I'm talking (well actually listening) to my mother speak. I'd be listening and then everything would change...rather my perception of it did. I can't SEE myself outside of my body, I kind of feel like I AM outside it...everything begins to look different...I know where I am, but I just see it differently? Kinda like when you stare at something for too long and then all of a sudden you get a whole new perspective on it.

Please, please I'd like to hear some of your experiences with auras! Have you been able to stop/control them? Or do they completely take you over?

Comments

Re: Can you pull yourself out of an aura when you feel it coming

Submitted by harmonythruchaos on Sat, 2010-02-27 - 12:36

How is everybody? This is my first time to this site.  I too feel aura's everytime I'm goining to have a seziure and reality becomes distorted and confusing as you may know ther is no explaining the feeling. I think the worst part of it all is the feeling of not haveing control over your mind it's a bit scary. Iv'e probably had at least 20 seizures over the years, I was a crazy adolecent, lol! I'm going to share a secret, that has worked for me so many times "meditation" I promise you, if you can learn how to meditate everyday for at least 30min. to 1 hr or when an aura is on the verge. You will overcome must of them if not all of them. This does not mean to stop taking med's but it will strenghten your mind, were you have the ability to overcome it and not be a total slave to it (metaphoricaly speaking).

How is everybody? This is my first time to this site.  I too feel aura's everytime I'm goining to have a seziure and reality becomes distorted and confusing as you may know ther is no explaining the feeling. I think the worst part of it all is the feeling of not haveing control over your mind it's a bit scary. Iv'e probably had at least 20 seizures over the years, I was a crazy adolecent, lol! I'm going to share a secret, that has worked for me so many times "meditation" I promise you, if you can learn how to meditate everyday for at least 30min. to 1 hr or when an aura is on the verge. You will overcome must of them if not all of them. This does not mean to stop taking med's but it will strenghten your mind, were you have the ability to overcome it and not be a total slave to it (metaphoricaly speaking).

Re: Can you pull yourself out of an aura when you feel it coming

Submitted by Lunameower on Tue, 2012-05-01 - 06:22
I know that you wrote this awhile ago, but I just came across it and wanted to comment. What I go through some of the time reminds of what you are saying about your auras. For some reason around the time that I'm having a lot of simple partials I seem to have weird memories or have a weird feeling when I go somewhere that I'm not really familiar with I feel like it corresponds to some memory from my childhood that it can't possibly have anything to do with, like I'll be driving through a new city and it will remind me of a family christmas party. Anyway, it seems that the more I have these weirds memories the more likely I am to have a seizure, anyway, it's just weird.

Re: Can you pull yourself out of an aura when you feel it coming

Submitted by sparker001 on Tue, 2012-05-08 - 20:40

How interesting - what you said is similar to what I experience.  I was just telling someone the other day that I know when my cycle of partial seizures is coming.  It's like someone unplugs my usual 'memory drive", and plugs in a flash drive of memories that are mine but - at the same time - they aren't mine.  They are like memories that are familiar to me on some level, on a vividly emotional level, but at the same time they are not normal memories from my life and my experience.  Hard to explain.  But I know when that starts to happen that all hell is going to break loose just a few days later :)

Blessings to you!

How interesting - what you said is similar to what I experience.  I was just telling someone the other day that I know when my cycle of partial seizures is coming.  It's like someone unplugs my usual 'memory drive", and plugs in a flash drive of memories that are mine but - at the same time - they aren't mine.  They are like memories that are familiar to me on some level, on a vividly emotional level, but at the same time they are not normal memories from my life and my experience.  Hard to explain.  But I know when that starts to happen that all hell is going to break loose just a few days later :)

Blessings to you!

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