Well, Darren has been seizure-free since starting the keppra. He reached the therapeutic dose of keppra and is down completing the descent from the clobazam. Neuro kept him on the Clobazam while he upped the keppra and now we are at 1000 mg of keppra/day and 10 mg of clobazam/day. End of the month we will be flying solo with Keppra and praying that it holds him. He has been tired as the meds go down...When we were adding keppra and upping it he would be bone weary for 2 days. As we are going down with the clobazam he is tired and weapy for about a week until he stabilizes. I wish i wish i wish... these words keep begging to come out. There are a few things in life i would like to change and my sons' struggle is one of them. I read about a young teen talking about his diabetes and he said " I kept asking "why me!?" and then i finally realized "Why NOT me?" I thought that was an interresting rind of philosophy for a 14 year old to chew on. I guess i want to know too... why is it Darren?...but i can't say "why NOT him" It seems so careless when he is my child....my questions are more like why is it not me? I do however want to make HIM the kind of young man that asks "why not me"...It's a good humble, prideless question. How can i nurture good fruit in his character from this plant of sorrow and fatigue. I know that God is already doing his work in Darren. It is a strange thing to feel like your child is learning a hard life lesson that you didn't plan for him to learn this early. My daughter has a verse up in her room that says "Carry each other's burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of Christ." Galatians 6:2... Maybe i don't have to have all the answers for him... he's not even questioning... i am! I just need to love him... ache when he aches...that's not so hard!