I randomly get a very Intense Déjà vu feeling that I refer to as, “Vertigo” (although I experience NO symptoms of dizziness). The thoughts come in a wave and are almost enticing. The enticement comes from the connection I am trying to make between the thoughts. They are almost like memories, or dreams, that I am trying to remember. The more I focus on them, the harder it is to make the connection. Also, the more I focus on them, the more the feeling of panic increases. With that panic, parts of my body will become numb. I can only describe the numbness as a feeling of the body part “falling asleep”. I have felt a lack of blood flow to parts of my head, tongue, arms, legs, chest, etc. That is one of the most terrifying feelings.
As this is happening, I try to let people around me know that I am having “vertigo”. I have told the people that I surround myself with that when it starts, to remind me to say whatever is going through my head out loud. This is so they can remind me after, and I can try to figure out what those thoughts are. This is because after the“vertigo”, I cannot remember anything that went through my head, even if I said it out loud. After the “Vertigo”, I feel completely exhausted and sometimes fall asleep within five minutes or so of having it. I also feel, after every time I experience this, that I lose a memory (at random). These auras’ come and go at any time. I have had them in the middle of the night, driving, in the middle of a conversation, watching TV, etc. It is hard to figure out what triggers them because they happen at very random times. I have had up to four in one day, and I have gone weeks, to months, without having any at all. It is a terrible feeling for many reasons. The main reason is because I feel a loss of control. I cannot control my actions or the thoughts racing from through my head. I believe that the feeling of not having control is what causes the panic feeling.
I tend to feel out-of-it for hours to days afterwards, depending on how intense the “vertigo” is. I feel as if my memory is decreasing. I also get small hints of déjà vu that feel like they will lead to “vertigo”, which causes me anxiety.
I have given up on going to the doctor. When I told my Primary Doctor of my symptoms, he said that he had never heard of anything like that. I cannot afford to see a specialist or undergo anymore tests. I am hopefull that someone will read this and find they have similar symptoms and have received a diagnosis. After looking on the internet and comparing my symptoms to others, I believe that I could be experiencing Temporal Lobe Seizures.